BLOG #14! SECOND CHANCES :)

If I had the chance to go back in time to a previous point in my life I would defiantly do it. I would go back in time and be nicer to people who weren’t just like me. No one is ever going to be the perfect, all-around, ideal best friend. So, if I could I would go back and try to be nicer to everyone. Even people I don’t like very much, I would make a more conscientious effort to be there for people, even if they are a little different from me. I think I would have more friends now, if when we were little, I would have been nicer to people in my class. I don’t think I was ever really flat out mean to people; I just never tried to reach out of my comfort zone to make people feel very comfortable around me. I think if I would have just tried a little harder, given a couple more people a helping hand or a compliment, I would be able to look around and say that I had a lot of friends because over the years, I always made a conscious effort to reach out to people always be nice, and never hurt anyone’s feelings. That will be a lesson I will try my hardest to teach my children because I want them to be happy, and have a lot of friends, so to make friends you have to be one, so be nice to everyone and in the end you will succeed.

Someone Else's Skin! blog #13 :)

You never really know what someone else is thinking, feeling, or how they would handle a situation until you take a step into their life, into their shoes. When in a sticky situation, or even just sometime when you disagree with someone, I personally, always try to take a look at what their saying from their point of view. I’m not always very good at it, but it’s something that I think is an important, skill to have.
I would have to say, though, right off the top of my mind, that there is no moment in time where I look back and am like that is the exact moment in time when I took a look at life, from someone else’s point of view. Over my whole life, my parents have cared for me dearly, and I appreciate that very much. But I never really knew what it was like to be a parent until my little sister was born, she’s 12 years younger than me, so I get a pretty good dosage of what it’s like to be a parent. I watch and care for her. I love her very much! But I never really saw what it really was like to watch over someone and protect and care for them. So, I would have to say, the moment in time when I stepped into someone else’s shoes was when my little sister Sarah was born. I figured out, in a sense, what it was like to be a parent.

MY BIGGEST FEARS IN LIFE! TOPIC #33

1- Love
2- Losing people I’m close to
3- My basement
4- I will trip when I’m walking down the aisle at my wedding.
5- Cancer
6- Growing up
7- Monsters under the bed
8- Taking the garbage out at night
9- Plastic silverware
10- Death
11- Superstitions
12- Wiener dogs
13- Alex Becker’s dog
14- Getting my heart broken
15- Being alone- physically or emotionally
16- When I play softball, I’m scared I’ll get my face smashed in.
17- Being hit by a drunk driver. Or a car wreck in general
18- Fire
19- Dying in any other way, than old age.
20- Loosing

My biggest fear in life, so far, is something that has bothered me since I was a little itty-bitty girl. That fear is getting my heart broken. And I blame most of the fear on advertisements, like the tube, and other things like that because they so widely promote heart breaks, and how bad it is to be in love. Things like that have always bothered me because it was so often drawn back to in things like TV. I am in a way surprised, although, because I’m not usually one to believe every little thing I hear, not to mention my family has never really had to deal with anything like that. I suppose there is also the chance that not all of this fear does come from the tube, but I’m not sure where else it would be. Heart-break is something that I have, in the past, experienced and I do believe I could happily live my whole life and never feel it again, and be totally satisfied.

TOP 10 STORIES OF '08!

1- New Years Eve/Day -- Best Friends for LIFE! Hank and I are inseperable. We do everything together, we're literally two peas in a pod. So, New Years Eve we decided to hang out, like usual. But, we had to babysit my little sister Sarah. We were both not really looking forward to it, causeI mean seriously it's babysitting. We ended up creating one of the most memorable moments of my life! :) We ate and drank (pop) away the night and had so much fun!

2- April 27 -- After a straight year of a hectic life for two people (other than myself) my life finally seemed to fall into place. The day Alex and I became more than just friends. It was rather awkward and ungraceful but in the end things turned out just how I wanted them to. Perfect.

3- May, June, July -- Summertime is finally here! Where my school life ends, my summer job picks righttt up! Unfortunately, I don't get any salary or anything like that for my job, but that's fine with me. If I never got paid one cent to do this job, I'd be more than satisfied. What's my job? Softball, I play softball pretty much 10 months of the year! I live, breathe, feel softball. PERIOD!

4- Late July-- Family vacation! It rules. Some people takes a vacation to the mountains or to the city or somewhere like that. Our family is very boring, we go the same place every year... that's right! Beach baby! For the past three years we've decided to vacation, no matter what. For 2 years we went to Myrtle Beach, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. One of my favorite places on earth. Last year, though, we changed it up a little bit we went to the panhandle of Florida. The Emerald Coast. Even though we could hardly get in the water because of a hurricane headed for Mexico, it has topped the list with my favorite place that I have ever set my little foot on.

5- August-- HIGHSCHOOL BABY! A small step for sophomores, juniors, and to a lesser degree seniors but a huge leap for freshmen! I mean everything changes in highschool, and my friends and I had pretty much already come to that conclusion. I mean we had put together through observation and watching. We all knew we would gradually slip through th cracks, find new paths. And so far we have all slipped apart a little bit. But highschool gave me, personally, a whole new outlook on life. It showed me that there can be more to your world than your little group of you and your two closest friends, and thats the only way you can survive. Expand your outlook. But I have also found that you will not survive without that one person or two that you can lay your life into. Keep them closest, everyone else at arms distance for good measure.

6- September-- Megan's birthday is in September and she's just growing up so darn fast! Jake (her boyfriend) Alex (my boyfriend) Megan (Foley) and I all are like best friends, adn so we all went out to dinner at Chili's, and then we went to see a movie! It was so much fun! We literally laughed until we cried, we made fun of how the boys eat and so they just stopped. Then we went to see The Dark Knight and it was 87,498,276,874,875,632,476,583,264,328,582,365,832,894,658,732 hours long! Not to mention it toally sucked... but that didn't even matter because we had so much fun! :) Love you Lil MEGGI!

7- October-- Halloween, Halloween, Halloween! Oh it totally rules! Becker came over and we were watching scary movies and screaming our heads off like little babies when my mom yelled to us that someone was here to see us. So, scared, we walked out into the living room to find that John McCain and Barack Obama were wlaking towards us. We ran back into our TV room and they followed relentlessly, and just about as they were reaching to touch us they whipped off their masks and much to our dismay it was Nick Frost and Tania. Oh gosh, after that we laughed until we just about wet our pants. It was awesome, they really got us.

8- November-- Tania's birthday is in November! For the past couple of years we have always gone to her brithday and had a whole bunch of fun. Usually, we just hang around at her house or whatever. This year she decided to change it up a little bit, we went to a hotel with, Megan, Claire, me, Jake, Alex, Matt, and Erica. We swam and had so much fun, then we went back to the hotel room and chilled. Eventually, the boys left and we stayed up basically all night! It was tight! :)

9- Middle November-- Basketballllll! I love it! So, of course, I was super pumped when it started. We had a tournament last weekend, we didn't do real great but it was our first couple of games we did alright. It was really just fun being out there again and to be in the flow of things. I can't wait to see what the rest of the season has in store for us. :)

10- Late November-- Have you ever had your heart broken. I'm sure most people have. What abput ripped out and literally jumped on. I'm pretty sure if you have ever been cheated on, you know what it feels like. I feel like that right now. It hurts like a whole bunch. But it doesn't matter, everything happens for a reason. God had it in his plan for me.

Lyrical Lines

OHHHH! Music, music, music I could not live with without it. It is like my whole life! Whenever I’m in like a bad mood, sad mood, or anything in between I listen to music to make me feel better, or to get my mind off of what is bothering me. I like tons of different genres of music, I’m not to picky. I like virtually anything, EXCEPT oldies. Wow! I can not stand listening to oldies they drive me insane! I also go through phases where I really like one band for a couple of weeks and then I don’t like them anymore and I move onto a different one. Then after a month or two I hear them again and I fall back in love with them again. These past couple of weeks, I have been totally obsessed with a band called All Time Low. Holy moly! They are astonishing, they are classified as a emo-punk rock band! I know that sounds totally and completely disgusting but they are amazing and not nearly as bad as their genre sounds. My favorite song by All Time Low has to be Remembering Sunday! The lyrics are amazing and I always listen to it when I’m upset and just need to chill.

Forgive me,
I'm trying to find
My calling,
I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running
through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems I'm gonna ask her to marry me
And even though she doesn't believe in love
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut
Waking the neighbors
Unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside
The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, whoever she may be
I'm not coming back (forgive me)
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak (I'm not calling, I'm not calling)
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt
Now the rain is just (You're driving me crazy, I'm) Washing you out of my hair
And out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world
From so many thousands of feet off the ground
I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds
And towering over your head
Well I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now

Those are some of the lyrics to my favorite song; most of the time this song helps me get pumped for a game, chill when I’m upset or just to rock out to when I feel like rocking!
All Time Low is a great that knows how to make awesome music to rock out to!

WHAT IS LOVE, ANYWAYS?

What is love anyways? Is there even a true blue, for-real definition? I think not. Love to me, is something felt between two people meant only to be together, with each other and no one else. I believe that there is no true definition for, real love, for it is indefinable.
This is not from my own personal experience, but I think that the statement, “people love others not for who they are, but how they make them feel,” is bogus. From looking and observing others relationships from an outside view I think that people get too caught up in piling onto their ego’s rather than being in it for the long haul. I don not necessarily agree with that fact but, hey, it’s not my relationship to be had. I always thought true love wouldn’t roll with those punches. I think at this age though, the extent of relationships amounts to that and that’s about all. With most people, anyways. I also, from the outside looking in, think that people date other people not for who they are, but more to just they have or are. Or so they can brag to their friends, and say that they have. Now, with my own personal experience I think that statement is true and false. I was brought up to believe true love is never take, take, take but rather push and pull to reach a common goal. Love, is not what other people constantly have to say to make you feel good, being with them, talking with them should handle that. Most girls my age, go out with boys because they’re cute or they say something nice, not because of the person that they really are. Because they are usually terrible people. But that one time they say that one nice thing and they think that they are drop dead head-over-heels in love. But maybe they are, its not really my point to judge. So, personally, from my own personal experience I have found that statement to be 100% false, false, false. I like to think that I save a pretty good definition of what love really is, and what a healthy companionship should feel like. I don’t believe in lying, cheating, or any relationship where someone always feels hopeless, for to me, that is no relationship at all. If it is a relationship that is a one-way street, so to speak, then it is no relationship at all.

JUST BY LOOKING AT YOU! :)

I believe you can tell about a person by what they look like and how they present themselves. To me, the appearance of a person shows a lot about who that person really is. Just like colors are good signal of emotions and feelings. I judge people a lot by what they wear and what they say. If people wear all black and tons and tons of make-up I usually think that they are pretty hard-core but I try to keep and open mind and get to know them before I set in stone my judgment. But if people are very colorful or a little more classical then I tend to think they are a touch more open and easier to talk to. I usually try not to judge right off the bat about what the appearance of a person shows, but I would have to say I’m really bad at that because I base my first impression on people off of what they wear and act like. Do I think love at first sight is possible? Yes and No. No, in general I do not believe that love at first sight is possible, I believe by just looking at someone you automatically know you love someone. Like at first sight, oh yes, I believe that, I do believe you can look at someone and be attracted to them and decide to approach and a relationship or love, or whatever, can come from that. But I certainly do not believe by simply looking at someone you can honestly say, without ever speaking to them previously, that you can say you love them. I just don’t see how that is emotionally possible. I think the heart sets up to many boundaries for it to be that easily broken down. There's just too many.

Dinner Party... Party of Four

If I could have a dinner party and invite any three people from history or from the future, or even just from right now I would pick two of the three people to be people I have never even met before. In person. I would first off, place my dinner party in the future, some 30 years away. For then I would surely know my fate and how my life would be. I would also be to the point in my life where things are pretty much settled and not a great deal more is bound to change. And as for the guest list, it isn’t going to contain much, three simple names:

My Guest List
-God
-Maternal Grandma
-Who I am going to marry

Like I said a pretty short list. But people I would love to meet, especially now. People that have/will have had a huge influence on my life and shaped the person I have become. Even though I may have never met any of these people they have inspired me to be the best person I can be and to always be strong. Without these people having some influence on me today I would not have recognition of what is right and wrong, and that in the end perseverance gets you everything. So, if I had the chance to invite any three people from any point in the history or future of the universe I would invite those three people, so I would have the knowledge and be able to hear what they have to say to say to help me become the best person I can. To be a success.

My Morning Routine...

After a long tiring weekend of partying hard before, after, and during homecoming I quickly fell into a deep sleep on Saturday and Sunday night. But on Monday morning and the weekday mornings that follow I always get up and ready to go the same way. I lift my weighty head from my warm fluffy pillow, usually to turn off my blaring musical alarm. Then I quickly realize that I’m late and I sprint out of bed and rush to the bathroom, pee, and come back to my room. Usually I instead of putting my clothes on right away, I end up flopping back into bed for 5 or 10 more mintues and then I’m fashionably late. Then, fast as lightning, I throw on my clothes and run down stairs. After that I quickly apply a top coat of foundation and whip on a bit of bronzer to match. Throw down a little bit of breakfast. Then I watch a few minutes of Saved By The Bell and then I finish doing my makeup, eyeshadow, eyeliner, and mascara. I get bored and take a break watch a few more minutes of tube and let my straightener heat up, then I brush and straighten my hair, which luckily, only takes a few minutes. Finally, I brush my teeth and put on a glimmer of lip-gloss. Just before I go I put on one more coat of deodorant and a squirt of perfume and rush out the door just in time. I’m hardly ever late... actually never!

Middle School Is Gone Forever...

Middle School is over and history now, only a memory. But while we were there it was pretty awesome, an once-in-a-lifetime experience. Going into the different atmosphere, I will admit, 7th grade year I was pretty scared those first couple of days. I mean what a change going from little protected grade school to something totally, and completely, different. Where your teachers only cared about half as much as the used to, or so I thought. It turned out to be Mrs. Knepler, Mrs. Tribble, Mrs. Bellas, and Mr. Morris proved me wrong, they could not have cared more deeply about us and how our 7th grade year turned out to be.
Summertime made basically everyone harsh, people’s ego blew up bigger than expected,a dn that would have been okay if it only would have been one or two people that it happened to, but it wasn’t. Eighth grade turned into a little bit more of a… change. Instead of having separate ‘teams’ like O, M and S it became team S and team S.5. And everything, I mean everything changed. Forever. People began to see the flaws in other people, even best friends grew apart because of pathetic reasons, like boys or other girls, or just because they weren’t cool enough anymore. Basically, from day 1 everything was a struggle. For everyone, it was hard. But we finally, realized that as high school approached we were never going to get these middle school years back again. And we changed every single one of us. People let go of bad feelings and moved on. We took this giant leap into high school hand-in-hand and I wouldn’t have been able to do it any other way. Were all pretty good friends again, and I couldn’t be happier.

Time Capsule Blog #4

Time capsules, to me, are things that capture moments in time for a person or group of people. They tell about things that are important to people. In this case though, we will never see this time capsule again, because it can only be dug up 500 years from now. So if I had to fill a time capsule that would be dug up in 500 years that was only the size of a large suitcase I would put items in it that define me at this point in my life. Or things that made me who I have become today. I would put pictures of people closest to me; my family, Tania, Alex and Hank, people who have shaped me into the person I am today. Then I would put in my Bible because my faith is very important to me. Next, I would put in a softball because playing is my hobby, and even though I play basketball and I like it a lot too, I wouldn’t put in a basketball because it would take up way too much room. Then I would put something in the capsule to represent a broken heart because I think at some point in everyone’s life they experience a broken heart that helps to define and make them a stronger person and how to work through it. Lastly, I would put into the time capsule would be something that signifies strength or perseverance because in life, not everything is a piece of cake and often things get really rough, and you have to work and fight to get through it and I think doing that is also a very important factor in my life.

Super Powers!

If I had super powers I would be like Super-Woman or something! I’d be the bomb-digity, the coolest kid in school… A Hero. If I only had one chance, one choice to pick a super-power of my preference I would most defiantly get the super-power that would allow me to become invisible. Being invisible would be the coolest thing on earth because when you get mad at someone or you just want to get away you could just turn invisible and no one would be able to tell where you went. Also being a super-hero you are going to sun into some dangerous situations and having the ability to just become invisible would more quickly and efficiently get me out of sticky situations. And if you were a regular kid like at school, and you were in a class that was like super boring then you could just turn invisible and leave and no one would be able to stop you. Back to being in the super-hero part of your life than you can sneak around and stop your enemies while being invisible and no one could spot you. And you can always sneak out and no one would be able to catch you, because HEY! They can’t see you! Although being a super hero would be totally cool I think over time it would get old, I like being just a regular kid, with regular ability; Super-Heroes have way too much expectations to live up to. I dig being just a regular kid!

Best Time, Right?

Best Time, Right?
I’ve been told time after time that these are the best years, the discovery years. And from time to time I believe those who tell me, because something really amazing happens. But then again I find myself frequently questioning that phrase.
Although these are the best times as I know them now, I am pretty sure I will look back in 15 or 20 years and realize that these really where the best memories I will probably ever have, and that I will regret that I didn’t realize that now. I will probably regret not knowing that these where the best times, even though I have been told over and over again that they in fact, really are. No, I am not convinced that I will be happier as I grow older, but I also don’t think that I will be less happy either. I believe there can be common ground that you are neither happier nor sadder can’t you be equivalently happy all your life, and the memories are the only thing that changes the capacity of that time in your life.
Happiness is something you have to create yourself, in my opinion. You have to make your own fun and I believe that is what makes you happy. Surround yourself with people you love to be with not people that make you feel uncomfortable or awkward, otherwise are you really being you or is it just a mask you put on to be, or what you pretend to be. It doesn’t take much to make me happy, someone who is a real person, a person that can make me feel good. Happiness is achieved by hard work, and persistence.

Blog Entry 1

Hey my name is Alissa Cross and this is a blog about my life and how I live it. I live in Atlanta and I have lived there basically my whole entire life. Before I lived in Atlanta though I lived in a small town by the name of Aledo, a place a couple hours north of here. I only lived there until I was about 3 years old, after that we moved to a small house in Atlanta, then we moved again, and again, to the place were I call home today. With me lives my two other sisters, Katie who is 17 years old, and Sarah who is 2 ½ going on 16! Well and then there’s my parents, Lynn and Kalee. Together were a big happy family, and I love them all so much, they help me get through the day. Without them I would be pretty lost. And as for me, I’m 14 years old and I’m a pretty typical teen, I go through a ton of mood swings, and I hang out with my friends all the time. I play softball, and basketball, and I can’t get enough of them. I’m 5’5’’ short and I could take getting a little bit more. I also have dark brown hair that’s about medium length, and I love fashion I pride myself on what a wear and how I present myself.
My goals for my high school career are to attain straight A’s all the way through, and to have so much fun. High school is about discovering who you are and what you want to be, having fun and making smart mistakes. It’s about finding who you’re compatible with whether it be as friends or as something different. To me if I accomplish those two things I will be thrilled with my discovery years.
I also love to travel, I do most of it with my family though. We have been to the beach mostly, Myrtle Beach, South Carolina two times, Destin Beach, Florida, and the Outer Banks, actually we went to an island segregated 23 miles away from any distinct part of land, and it is only accessible by private jet or ferry. I would love to, as I age, to venture to Paris, Rome, Italy, China, Japan and some other unique cultures. To me, that would be the most interesting thing to do in the whole world. It's an escape to the outer world different from the ways your accustomed to, to the ways you live.
I currently have a serious obsession with the outdoors. Not that I'm that into the whole like "think green" theory. Not that that's not important, that's just not what I'm into. But not like the whole pitch a tent, roast marshmallows and weenies type of thing, either. I mean like the part where you go star gazing, kind of thing. I also have come to the realization very recently of how beautiful and petite the Earth is, and I'm just now coming too the factors that make up the Earth, maybe I'm just maturing a touch as well.
When I look back at myself in 20, 30, 40 years I want to be able to think that I could define myself and tell myself a lesson that I learned in my so called, "discovery years" I believe I could sum it up in one verse. It comes from the Bible, from the book of Luke 4:10-11: "He will command his angels concerning you to guard you carefully: the will lift you up in their hands so that you will not strike your foot against any stone." To me that could not be better said, while your finding yourself and you feel totally lost your are still protected whether you feel as if you are or not. I think that is such a comforting feeling knowing there is one person in the entire world that will never let you down. Thank You.